If you noticed the post date you may have realized that as I wrote this, I am not in Peru in fact I am 4193 miles away from Peru. I have less that two weeks before I leave and I couldn't be more excited. I love all my friends and I will miss them dearly but there comes a time when it's better to leave all the things you know and start a new life among the unknown, even if only for a while. I don't mean to say that I believe we should all have many different identities with many different people. I feel as if the people and the city I live in today have fit me into a form that I probably was at one point in my life but I think I've grown out of that and am now conflicting with the mold set for me. I got a taste of freedom last summer when I went to China. There was no mold. I could be me (and me is a good person to be, at least if you're me) I got back, and yes, the mold did shift, but not enough maybe. I am living in a city full of families trying to settle down in a nice suburbia. I feel like this is the exact opposite of myself at this time in my life. So it is safe to say, yes, I am excited to leave.
I am excited to leave a state of being that I described to a friend as being like pubescent facial hair. The kind that is there, but not enough to be considered a mustache. The hair is just confused but more frustrated because he can see other facial hairs being rich and full, but he still cannot be them, not yet. There is nothing he can do, but grow. I have graduated high school, so I am clearly not one of those (nothing against them, im just over it). But I am not in or at college yet. I believe it's a very frustrating time. But soon I will be mustache, or sideburns, or a neck beard (hopefully not).
Well I just wanted to give a small preface to my blog. (and I would prefer if you would say preface as if the face was fis, prefis, is sounds more proper)
I leave August 15 (3 am)
4 comments:
Because I love you I am going to start pronouncing it Pre-FACE ;) instead of the right way!
I can see where you'd draw the prepubescent facial hair metaphor...
looking forward to engaging with the full thick mustachio. i will miss "clair" among many other things. you go and be all the wonderful you you are. with love and prayers... i will be here
I'm sure your short life (in Peru) will lead to long lives - along with long facial hair(s) in other adventurous destinations unknown to you maybe - but known to One. You will reveal as it is revealed to you.
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